I Hate…
…that I can’t remember a time in my life where migraine headaches weren’t a frequent event.
…the background radiation caused by the constant anxious thought that for no reason at all, whole days might disappear into a miserable fog of debilitating pain. The ability to look forward to things with excited anticipation being an early psychic casualty. Even a nearing birthday or holiday could easily trigger a skull-cratering slog into the abyss.
…being 55 years old with fewer migraines—mostly manageable. And having the wistful feeling that I somehow miss being destroyed. Yearning for the rare euphoria that reassembling oneself after annihilation brings.
…so I guess I don’t really hate migraines.
This Week In Wilco, Etc.
2005 / November 15: The live album Kicking Television: Live in Chicago is released on Nonesuch.
1994 / November 17: Wilco plays their first show, at Cicero’s Basement Bar in St. Louis, MO. Billed as Black Shampoo, they play seven songs live for the first time: “I Must Be High”, “Too Far Apart”, “That’s Not the Issue”, “Pick Up the Change”, “Lost Love”, “Casino Queen”, and “Hesitation Rocks.”
2017 / November 17: The Mavis Staples album If All I Was Was Black, produced and written by Jeff and recorded at The Loft, is released on Anti-.
Sitting here in bed w a GD migraine again and then I read this.
Years ago, I read your migraine & addiction blog for NYT and it hit me hard. It helped me realize that I wasn’t a POS bc I’m anxious, have migraines, and had become addicted to pain meds. Your words in that blog are a big part of what led me to recovery. Your words and honesty are powerful. Thank you.
I suffer from migraines as well. Only other sufferers understand. Feel better.